the beginning and the end.

The words fumble
As the appearances tumble
Down the carefully built
Mountains and seas
Of our destiny


push

underneath the stars

Underneath the stars
I lie
With no one but you
On my mind

My tears flow down my face
Disappear into the ground
No one seems to hear
The silent sound

Tell me you’re here
Bring me back to life
Tell me you’re here
You’re right by my side

I think of standing up
But then I know I stand alone
It’s like all of these years
These feet weren’t my own

Tell me you’re here
Bring me
Back to life
Tell me you’re here
You’re right…by my side

I wish you didn’t leave me
In this world of pain
I wish I could be
Who I was again

I wish I could fade
Softly into the sky
Maybe you’d come to say
Say goodbye

I wish you didn’t leave me
How I wish you didn’t leave me
Underneath the stars…
I’m alone
And you’re so far.

Push 2004

wrote this song many years ago.. still sing it once in awhile.. me and my guitar :)

my new blog title image

:) worked hard on it. love to have your comments.

push

i dont know again.

age is a number.
time is not.

-push

I don't know

I don't know
What time holds-
Except
Its holding me now.

Rest in peace Scottie...

Brown eyes
Brown eyes
I'm searching for you
You were In my arms
When I was in class 5
I'm aching for you

Breathe in breathe out
Breathe easy
My baby
Innocent, your heart
Although you trust nobody

Walk with me
Did I let you down?
Did you somewhere
Trust me
And I let you drown?

My heart is in chains
Brown eyes
Don't die
I'll take it all back
And again
You'll be mine

Fire
In your soul
Anger
In your mouth
Spiralling out of control
Lashing at the crowd

But then you
Change
Rearrange
Win me over again
How many second chances
Till the pain hits again

Your hair
On my clothes
In my blood
My love
Can't dilute
But it floods

My eyes with tears
Brown eyes
I love you
I held you
Till the end
I promise
Its true

Brown eyes
There will always be
A void in my heart
Brown eyes forgive me
But I loved you from the start

For him.

----- SMS ------
Sent: Apr 30, 2010 12:03 AM
Subject: Sometimes I get broody

Sometimes I get broody
And moody
On me
and you
Everybody
Is talking
Too fast
And I can't hear you

The raindrops are falling
Backwards
And I can't stop
Them from falling
Towards me

I don't like the sun
When I moody
I'm grey
I don't like the moon
Cause its as pretty as day

What gets me the most
Is when I'm moody on you
Broody on you
You know that's not true
Not the truest of me

The things in my heart
The simplest of things
Feel so heavy
When I'm moody on me

All I wanted to tell you
Was I love you
All I wanted to hear
Was the same

And when you picked up the phone
And kissed me
It started to rain

Baby I love you
Cause you are my love
You see right through me
Better than the one up above.

-Push

While the meaning was lost with growing up.

Its like after the storm. Its been cold, wet, sometimes ugly. Sometimes you grow so close to people that even after years they don’t fade. Their walking away didn’t hurt, till you felt them reappear year after year, even though they were gone.
I am not talking about a lover. I am talking about friends. Not one face – fated to meet me from the crowd of many. Giggling three girls in the back of a sunny yellow car, while the meaning was lost with growing up.

I miss you all.

Silently.

sunset

beautiful sunset
vivid color
what makes it perfect?
it rarely lasts an hour.


This was till he asked me:
"but does the sun really set?"


-push

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