The you -call- me -first.

Are u not sleeping.  Are you awake. It's the same question. Different take. It seemed to rhyme there and I'm fine here. Making no sense at all passing the time here. Breaking but not broken, freaking but fine here. Wondering what's taken although I've got what is mine here. Speaking in secrets faking a cigarette.  There is no shame in those wandering thoughts. Okay I'm drifting and the cloud is lifting. Before I start dreaming tell me if we're meeting.  My phone is a good place although we can't have a coffee. We can't have a kiss, we can't have a night.  We can have the pleasure of just saying goodnight.

programmed

The futures too big

So I step back

To get the total look

Too many things I could be

Wish I could

Put my head into

A software, sort, delete

And programmed

To succeed.

push

Spat of the Week

Happiness makes you fat.
Really.

random conclusion

We get lost in our little judgmental natures, and the people we judge climb over our heads and shine.
-push

So...wake up!

I just cant seem to wake up early. Its really upsetting cause I got a gym membership and everything in attempts to get fitter, because I need to do a lot more in my life than before. There's a whole lot of driving, traveling and stress.
So after going to the gym three days instead of thirty, I'm wondering how did I get here and what the hell to do.

Things that kept me from getting up and going to the gym:

1) Not enough support from friends. Now I kept listening to "Oh YOU? going to the GYM? WHY? you're THIN! No way, you're not gonna last even a day. You just CANT. I know you too well." Well you know what, that doesn't help. I really didn't know that I can't do what I put my mind to. I had no idea that's the impression you guys had, and it just pushed me to take it easy.


2) Waking up early. Tried gymming in the evening but I would be stuck in office, driving or chilling with friends... learnt the hard way evenings are NOT free for me.

3) Not being completely convinced that gymming is right for me... I mean there's belly dancing (lol), yoga, aerobics... isn't gymming like... boring?

4) Becoming overconfident.. "if I get fat, I'm sure I'll lose it.."

5) Not being FULLY DETERMINED!! AAAARRRGH I HAVE TO DO THIS!


I'm guessing ALL my problems will be solved if:

1) I WAKE UP EARLY

2) I don't discuss my gym plan with anyone but supportive people (i know who they are now)

3) Action out the two points above.

Well here's to me!

best of bloody luck.


edit:

"...Think about it — if you oversleep just 30 minutes a day, that’s 180+ hours a year. And if you’re at 60 minutes a day, that’s 365 hours a year, the equivalent of nine 40-hour weeks. That’s a lot of time! Now I don’t know about you, but I can think of more creative things to do with that time than lying in bed longer than I need to.."


Something i found from: http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2006/04/how-to-get-up-right-away-when-your-alarm-goes-off/

Sometimes

Sometimes the problem is that you just cant seem to stand and watch,
and sometimes the problem is that you just stood and watched.

-push

Spat of the week

Spat of the week

If you can't stand in my shoes,
Don't pretend you can walk like me.

-Push 10:43 am